Find a park with a gravel track or the treadmill. Do not focus on speed just start running and try to run for as long as you can, as soon as you feel you can’t run anymore, walk – catch your breathe and then try to run again. Your only focus at this point is to breathe through it and get time on your legs. I made a commitment to myself to do this consistently, every day or second day if possible.

Running is the way I will spend my time. It will be my focus, everyday. I need something to keep me on track with not drinking. It is helpful, my days change. I am up early in the morning and night-time at the moment is a difficult time of day. I feel bored, restless and cranky, incredibly cranky!! I need something to replace the sitting around with a glass of wine on the go. I make a trip to my favourite tea shop, “Tea Too”. I bought some beautiful tea’s, Licorice, Creme Brulee and Peppermint. I got myself a beautiful pot and cup, this would be my new night ceremony. One insight I have is that I have not allowed myself any space to enjoy simple pleasures. A nice cup of tea, to read a good book, a bath. Small pleasures are opening up new possibilities. Socializing is off my agenda for a while. Restraint is a muscle, it needs time and constant exercise to get stronger.

9.00pm – BED. Might as well.