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Correen — Tue, 21 Jun 2016 11:43:09 +0000

Today I am somebody, I never could have known I could be!

The transformation I have made to myself from the inside out is so big and complete I can’t recognize the person from my past. It is like two different people, two separate lives. I think back to decisions I made in my previous life that frankly, were trash! I made choices while I was drunk that were selfish, foolish, reckless and below me. I am thankful everyday that I was able to learn and grow before something terrible happened to teach me the lesson.

In my previous life, lets call it the bubble I coasted along, skimming across the top of life. Life in the bubble was void of difficult decisions, I didn’t have to face ugly little truths. I could make everything disappear, fade away into the back ground. I used wine as an eraser, rub stuff out, like a soft lens on life. What I didn’t know, and couldn’t have ever known, was how much the blurry bubble life limited me, dulled all my days, effected my outlook and restricted me within its shallow confined limits.

When I drank I was volatile, you know what…. I was an Ass! I made Ass decisions! Life changing choices, like they meant nothing! I look back at that person and think what a dick!

One choice, take the soft lens off for 3 months! Alcohol free for like 1% of my life. Why the hell does that seem so hard! Why did I struggle so much to do that? I will tell you why…. I was an alcoholic! I was addicted to it. I had to burst the bubble, come out and put my sunglasses on because life was about to get up and in my face!

I have gone back to full time study. Bachelor of Exercise Sport Science. When did I become so disciplined? I have been back studying for 1.5 years now and are coming up to my fourth Marathon only this time lets try for 50km Ultra Marathon. There will be no dulling of that pain, or the sense of accomplishment either. It is time to dig into big training block! Discipline, determination and commitment that will get me to the start line, and then 5 hours later and probably a few swear words, I will be the holder of a large accomplishment, new realisation about myself. Something that I can show my baby girls that their mummy did, and they can do too!

That’s it for today. Out.

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Correen — Sun, 12 Apr 2015 09:25:06 +0000

I have made some decisions. I am more motivated to keep moving in this direction on this path I am currently on. I am going to buy a cork board and put pictures and notes of motivation and just goals on it. There will be a couple of numbers on this board, 21.5 – 42 – 50 these numbers will be distances that I am committed to running. The word Trail running with a picture of a person running through a beautiful forest will be on my board and a slightly scary picture of a theme park, with a big open mouth and the words – Roller Coaster Run! These are experiences that I am going to ensure I have in the future. Well, there is some work to be done here. Slowly I will build my body and health to be able to run further and further. I have targets, Melbourne Marathon – 21.5 km, Roller Coaster – 21.5 km of hills and trails, Gold Coast Marathon – 42 km. Just for good measure I will complete a 65 km Cadel Evans Scenic Ocean bike ride. I have started losing weight!! Bonus! that’s motivating…. I am also noticing that certain skin and scalp issues that I was having has ceased. That’s funny, I wonder if my body was in a highly acidic state with all the drinking. Running program looks like this –
3 km moving to 5 km will stick to this as a min distance and when comfortable with this distance, increase to
6 km. Next 8 km and then when I am ready 10 km. Let’s stick with 10 km and get to running it twice a week wanting to eventually achieve every second day. As soon as 10 km feels bearable I will look at moving my speed up. I keep my running to the Gym on a treadmill and Lillydale Lake because of its soft gravel surface. The trick is to run consistently every second day with your longest run once a week. Once you get yourself to 10 km distance, hover there for a while. Building strength and aerobic capacity. At 10 km mark you can be vulnerable to injury and discomforts like shin splint issues etc. Let your body adjust and adapt. Enjoy the accomplishment and allow your body some time. Watch the weight melt away. Enjoy that wonderful euphoric feeling that you get from your running because that feeling lasts so much longer than the comfort you will get from drinking and it does not require topping up.